Awkward, introvert and shy - I've always struggled to find my place in the world because I seemed to be a complete misfit.
A world, which seemed to be a place full of weird rules, perplexing contradictions and confusing paradigms where people and things weren't what they appeared to be.
While I strived for solitude, silence and stillness, the world around me reveled in loudness, endless distraction and entertainment.
While I wanted to lead a simple, meaningful and heart-centered life, the people around me embraced a pretentious, materialistic and pompous lifestyle.
This conflict between what my inner world wanted versus how the outer world wanted me to be left me torn apart and confused.
Over time, I withdrew and became reclusive but still had to wear a mask of normality to go about my daily life.
Living in a foreign land away from my friends and family made things even more difficult as I continued to struggle in silence without any support.
Soon I became depressed.
And to make matters worse, I got married and my wife unfortunately had to suffer through this dark period as well.
I didn't know who I was, what I wanted or if my life had any meaning or purpose.
In short, I didn't know if I mattered.
My health started deteriorating as anxiety gripped every waking moment. I was sleep deprived, stressed out and fatigued. I was angry, irritable, bitter and suffered from severe mood swings.
I tried therapy for a while, it didn't help me.
I tried making new friends and socializing, I only ended up feeling miserable and out of place.
I tried reading books, but it was a real struggle to read through them as my inner negative voice would constantly talk me out of it.
I tried listening to motivational speeches and Ted Talks and while they gave me the much needed dose of inspiration, I felt my same old miserable self the next morning.
Over time, I was numbing my problems by watching too much TV and spending excessive time in front of the computer. It only ended up making me feel worse as I was even more stressed out, tired and depressed which only made me watch more TV and spend more time online.
This became a never-ending vicious cycle as not only I suffered but my wife suffered with me too.
I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.
One day, as I was watching videos on YouTube, I stumbled upon a video by Dr. Pat Love in which she talked about "Feel the feelings, but do the right thing."
Her philosophy was intriguing and eye-opening.
At a later point, I read a fascinating quote from Dr. Joe Dispenza,
"When feelings become the means of thinking, or if we cannot think greater than how we feel, we can never change. To change is to think greater than how we feel. To change is to act greater than the familiar feelings of the memorized self."
Finally, I discovered the REAL reason why I was stuck.
I was stuck because all along, I was solely relying on my feelings to change so that I could transform my life.
What I learned was that I had to actively do things to change my feelings and state of mind in order to transform my life.
This was a BIG epiphany.
It was so empowering to know that I could overcome my anxiety and depression and I did.
Eventually, I became interested in learning about how our minds work and I realized the true potential of the human mind to NOT only help us live an extraordinary life but also help us heal and overcome illness.
Today, I am proud to share that I have successfully overcome my depression and I am leading a life of peace and gratitude.
Through my website, Mind Mastery Lab, I hope to share my insights and help you overcome your issues by tapping into the power of your mind.
This amazing picture is a great reminder to treat ourselves just like we would treat our best friend - with kindness and compassion and reinforce the belief that with a curious, learning mindset, we can tackle the biggest life challenges, overcome adversity and live our lives to the fullest.
Thank you and Welcome Aboard.